Several years ago I attended a conference in Portland, Oregon for school librarians. It was a three-day affair with lots of speakers and pull-out sessions, a wonderful marketplace with lots of publishers showing off their books, and opportunities to hobnob with other professionals like myself. Toward the end of the last day, many people were opting to go home early rather than attend any more sessions. But not me. I marched resolutely into my last session which was an author event with poet Naomi Shihab Nye. I was embarrassed for her how few other people showed up for her event so I stayed put for the whole length of it. Actually I sat still, transfixed. At the time I wasn't familiar with her poetry since its target audience was a few grades below the students I served. But that didn't matter. What I encountered that day, the feeling has never left me, was poetry and how it spoke straight to my soul. It is as if a roadblock to my heart was moved aside that day, one that has never been built back up. Thanks to Naomi Shihab Nye, poetry has become an integral part of my being.
Grace Notes: Poems About Families is Naomi Shihab Nye's latest collection, written after the death of her mother. Though the book is full of over 100 poems, put together the poems create a sort of biography of her mother and her family. I've read several biographies written in verse and this isn't quite that. In those biographies I never felt like I was reading individual poems but just the story of someone's life which happens to be written in verse. (For an example of an excellent biography-in-verse check out Pauli Murray by Rosita Stevens-Holsey.) By contrast, the poems in Grace Notes can all stand on their own. Some I loved, some I didn't -- my usual reaction to poetry collections. But in this case, the whole tells a very compelling story of mother who as a girl was an art prodigy. This gal then married a man she'd only known for three months, he an immigrant from Palestine. Nine months later, Naomi is born. Naomi's childhood was tainted by her mother's depression and colored by her father's culture. In their house there was no TV but there were lots of books with no restrictions placed on them except interest.
In the poem "What Was the Secret in Your House" we learn how hard her mother's depression was on Naomi:
Is there always a secret?My mom cried and I didn't want people to know.My friend hid the fact her momdidn't speak English well.But sometimes it's a good secret, maybe?They love you more than they can ever say?
Then a miracle, the last nine years of her mother's life were depression free.
After the fuse of depressionblew out,she described feelingmore alive...Friends kept showing upto take her to lunchin more than one city.Her smile grew brighter,she was hungry for fun.(excerpts from "I'm Okay")
As a child of an aging parent I am well aware that my mother doesn't want to be remembered for certain things but would love to remembered for others. In two poems titled "Things We Don't Want to Remember" and "Things We Do Want to Remember" I am reminded of my own parents.
It wasn't until near the end of the book that I felt Naomi Shihab Nye's grief about the death of her mother with phrases like this in "Open Day", I miss everything I ever loved but it's / very near. Or this from "We Never Knew" which I relate to what is happening politically today, but she was referring to memories, When the country fell apart, / I fell into poetry, / which cost nothing / but care. / ... / Nothing required for / survival of memories / but a passing nod, / an endless love, / gratitude.
In the end the poet reminds us everywhere we go, our parent lives inside us. In "Not Every Much Inside," she says, We carry flash cards of one another's lives. A friend and colleague died this week and I am reminded I will always carry of few of his flashcard with me -- memories of interactions he and I had together. Isn't that an awesome thought?
As her grief starts to abate, the poet sees her parents in her grandson ("An Inch of a Word") and realizes -- He's the echo chamber, / the deep well into which / we pitched all our wishes / since we were born.
The continuation of life into the future. A life filled with grace notes.*
My rating: 5 stars
*Grace notes are a musical note printed in smaller size to show that it is not essential to the music, but is used just for a beautiful effect.